The girl I loved hated smokers as her father was a chain smoker. Thinking that she would put an objection to my action of smoking, I started smoking. We studied in the same coaching institute where she studied. Even being an engineering aspirant , i joined that 12 std maths coaching for her.That was one of the biggest mistake that I ever made.
One day I took out a ciggi from my pocket and started having that in front of her after our class got over. To my dismay , it never affected her. But the smoking thing never left me after that. This led me to even worse things. I stopped studying and ultimately the results were on the scorecard of school. Some how I only managed to pass. After the maths syllabus was over in the coaching, I was not even able to see her. I always walked by the side of her home in a fake hope of atleast seeing her. But .....
This continued for a while and I was the same Devdas with a broken heart. This continued till my two best friends (Abhishek Bhardwaj and Tanvi) decided to help me out. They called her and tried to tell her about me and clarified many things. But it was of no use. It was too late. They tried their best but failed.
On the 31 st January,2009. Tanvi called me. She had been my best friend since 8 th std and had shifted to Bhilai after 10 th std. She knew what I was going through and talked about it. We had a conversation over the phone for 2 hours and she convinced me to study atleast to pass with good marks. She believed in me. She knew what I am. She was there for me always and as usual she again proved why I considered her my best friend. For my parents and for my best friends, I set on my target again. I was back on track. I studied deeply for a whole month or you may say for 28 days and when the results were out, I got 88%.
My family was happy with my 12 th result. But what about me ?
I was still the same. I was not able to crack any good exam. I felt like a looser. I wasted my time thinking and crying inside. My friends got into good engineering and medical colleges and I was left alone. I had 2 options that time and I let my father decide it for me. - BITS pilani hydrabad branch for B.Sc. and M.Sc. (integrated course) and Mechanical Engineering at KIIT University. Dad chose the second option and I agreed to it because he is a Scientist and wanted me to be an Engineer.
But luck is what never favoured me.After the formal process of sending draft and all at KIIT University, which was done by my Dad coz I was at Dehradun, a friend called me and told me that "SHE" was joining KLS ( KIIT LAW SCHOOL, Bhubaneswar). I wanted to run away from my past but it followed me like hell.
I was scared. I wanted to live a normal life, make new friends and leave everything about my past far behind but this is what never happened.
And one day we met ............... ( to be continued ).
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